Now I'm TOO Motivated

Two runners running on rocky dirt track in forest.

Image accessed from Pixabay 31 August 2020.

Life is cruel, so be careful what you wish for. Last week I felt a real lack of motivation. Now, I’m TOO motivated.

I didn’t think it was possible to be too motivated. What does that look like? Well, I’m not having an issue getting started on work anymore, I’ve been doing alright at that. The issue now is that I just can’t switch the motivation off.  I’m unable to just sit back and relax for a lunch break because my head is thinking about how much I need to be doing all the tasks I have to do.

That’s not the worst of it though. The worst part is that I can’t stop thinking of ideas and ways of phrasing things when I’m trying to get to sleep. I feel like I could run a mile, my heart rates really high all while I’m supposed to be peaceful and relaxed. So I lie in the dark for hours trying to get to sleep. Trying to get to sleep never achieves anything cause it’s not really something you can try and do.

How do I switch off when I need to? I’ve found that slowing down my breathing rate and taking deep breaths helps quite a bit. It’s just a matter of getting into a headspace of relaxation. If that doesn’t work, I go make my self a tea and sit down for a bit.

It’s crazy how much our mood controls our behaviour. If I had complete control over myself, I’d just instantly go to sleep. It’s because I’m buzzing so much from tasks during the day, that’s not what happens.

The ability to control your own mood is such an important thing. To be peaceful when you feel like being angry; confident when you feel like being shy; restful when you’re filled with adrenaline.

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